Tuesday, November 30, 2010

the big cross necklace.

Today, I grabbed for it. The big cross necklace. No small cross on a dainty chain will do.

It is certainly not because I want to show off to the world or because I have the strength to proclaim this faith that guides me.
No, it's because I need to feel the weight of that heavy cross tap against my heart.

I need its weight to tap stronger and more loudly than all the other forces.
Physical Illness.
Mental illness.
I need the cross there to remind me of his promises, to knock against my heart as I continue to knock at his door.

Reaching for the hem of his garment,